Every once in a while someone piss us off..

It was a bad Easter Sunday morning ystd. I woke up late with a stomach full of wind that I couldn't get rid of. Then it was the train that took more than 6 min to reach. Next up was someone who pissed me off. I actually scolded the person. After that I felt bad about it but was still very angry. I didn't know how to face that person and I didn't. In fact, I avoided all eye contact and didn't bother to talk to her after that.

This was what happened: She called me when I was at Tanah Merah waiting for the train. I told her I won't be reaching Expo so soon as the train took a long time to arrive and I had to walk all the way to Hall 1 which is very far away. So she told me she's also on the way and whoever reached first just give a call. So well, I'm fine with that.

A few minutes past and she called me and I just reached Expo mrt. So I told her to go into the hall first. But she's afraid of sitting alone and insisted on waiting for me. So, I'm fine with that too.. While I'm walking quickly toward hall 1, she called me again and told me to run. I was really angry.

It's not as if I was taking my own sweet time to walk over. And I had already told her to go in without me. I shouted at her over the phone and told her to go in first. She still insisted on waiting and could still smile when she saw me. I'm amazed. Maybe my heart is not big enough like her.

I realised that I can't stand people who rushed me to do things. Especially when sometimes things are not within my control. I also realised in the past she had already pissed me off with her impatience and actions. Just that I chose to ignore then. All the built up irritation and frustration will one day blow up when I'm in a bad mood. Which, it did last Sun.

Maybe God is teaching me to love people again. I used to be very patient toward people. I used to love others who are different from me. Somehow, my love and patience toward others had died down. I can't stand people who are inconsiderate toward others.

More often than not, when one irritating person leaves, another takes his/her place. So I guess this is life. A life full of testing.

Forgive me, Lord, for I know not how to love them.

I don't think I will pick up any call from her again. I also don't think I will see much of her. From next week onwards, I'm going for Sat service. Times have changed. I actually don't mind going Expo service alone on Sat. :)